I hate appearing like a baby or a whiner, but I just got a magazine in my box at school. It is sitting right next to me as I type. The title implores me to open it up, saying with a star in front, Really Good Stuff, Essential Language Arts Resources for Today’s Classroom. I can pass up Coldwater Creek, Talbots and even Pottery Barn. On the bottom it even advertises Common Core for Literacy. There is a fair-haired golden girl with a Magic ‘e’ wand and card set. My girls and my boys would find it fascinating that the wand magically changes right before your very eyes.
Wait…there isn’t going to be a next year. Never again will I walk in to my cozy, comfy room with my magic carpet and my ‘checking in stools.’ I’ll be back to visit and I will rush by 121 in a hurry, it will hurt to see another in my spot…yet I know it is time.
I turn the catalog over and push it away…oops…I see that I get a free gift when I order on-line. Maybe I could find some stuff that Em can use with Sammie. I turn the page…I start reading the catalog backwards. I turn the page…
PS It has been excruciating trying to turn this page in my life this year, the hardest thing probably I have ever done. In so many ways my identity has really been wrapped up in this job. I have been teaching since I was 20 years old. But I know the next step is coming on rapidly. I love the work. God bless those of you who love it also. I will finish strong, in two months, I will be able to turn the page… I think I can, I think I can. xo